Start

Today I am reminded how little time we all had to grow up. It seems like it was yesterday when going to school with not a care in the world was just an after thought. I am starting another round of radiation. Re irradiating so soon after my first round of treatment is bad. Re irradiating in the brain stem is catastrophic. There is virtually no data on how I will turn out. Good and Bad. I’m not sure scared is how I feel. Because I am slipping away otherwise anyways.  Everyday I feel slightly worse. More difficulty walking. More stumbling. More double vision. More tingly on my right side. Less control of my left fingers. Less strength to do stuff. Less desire to do stuff.  So the rationale is let’s try an aggressive treatment since the tumor is aggressive. Or at least the symptoms are ever changing. Let’s do something drastic and quick too. I look forward to coming back again. Fresh start.

shit remy says: you’re doing great.